| These day I don't do much but hang out with Deborah and work. The only thing is she doesn't understand that I have feelings for her could say they are very strong feelings. I don't know what else to say or do... |
| |
| "Something About Us"
It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway
I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you
I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life
Could this song be anymore about the girl that I like amazing how it is written exactly how I feel about Deborah. |
| |
| A lot to think about these days.
I'm speaking with a girl I met last summer more often I have so many feelings for her I don't know what to do. I saw her cry in front of me on Saturday morning and I didn't know how to make it better for her. But I don't know if she wants to be as close as I want to be with her is it possible for us to be together. She was someone I really wanted to get to know and to be with cause I would like to have someone in my life haven't had someone close since Jen but found out we weren't really close I loved her and I don't know how she really felt about me. I was starting to get closer to Amanda but I messed that up and now we are not talking alsoI just don't know what to think these days. I'm missing Amanda every day but trying to move on I get to see her tonight
which I'm happy about that's if she'll even talk to me tonight.
|
| |
| I don't know how to feel these days when I see you near me I get all tongue tied. I remember just a week ago you were sitting next to me watching a movie I look over and see you laugh I'm going to miss that. Thing is it's my fault one day is all I wanted to be home but then and you were gone not wanting to speak to me again I miss you. I liked our long drives when it was just us I could talk in the car about anything on my mind and you could tell me anything on yours. But sometimes we just sat there listening to the music and me just thinking is this as close as I'm going to be able to be with you. I remember when you were sick you scared me you were wrapped in a blanket lying there all hot and shaking I didn't know how to react. I feel so close to you and far at the same time I think I have real feelings for you but if I tell you would you just laugh and tell me to leave or would you let me hug you and say you feel the same way so much going on in my head I miss you so much. I want to see you but now I can't unless I find you someplace to live how can I no money no credit how is that a fair trade unless find you new place to stay never get to see you again. I don't know if I could make it without you why do I always mess things up just last year I messed up a friendship I had for over four years over a girl. Now I've messed up another one over a girl again but this time it hurts so much more then the last time because I really like you. I don't know what to do maybe it would be better if you moved away then I can move on and find someone else to fall in love with and make my life better. I guess that's it for me goodbye for now I just hope she forgives me so I can see her for my birthday at the end of the month or I'll be all alone like always...
|
| |
| So what has changed these day a lot. Jen moved back from NY and now living in NOVA again which is nice get to see and talk to her again. Last few days have sucked thou the girl I liked says I flaked on her so does not want to see me anymore. Now she is about to move to Cali so most likely not going to see her again which totally sucks. Least I made up with a Deborah who I met a few years ago during my birthday which is nice to chill with her again. We haven't talked since the summer made some stupid mistakes during the summer.
My money is basically gone I have none I hate bills barely able to pay them now which is so hard just few months ago I had no bills left now dieing. Wish people when they say they would pay you back would actually and not just run a game on you. But yeah that's about it for me right now write again some time later when back on here again. |
| |
